i don’t think i like this very much. i mean it’s good if there is actually something there but if i’m just gonna go around and let people play with my feelings all over again then i might as well let them push me off a cliff. it’s sad when you start caring and they don’t. if they become needy, you’re still there. and when it’s your turn, nobody fucking cares. not that i’m asking for anything in return, i just hate how this has to work this way all the time. i need to stop being so nice!

i have been very careful nowadays with where i place my heart, making sure i just don’t leave it on anybody’s empty shelf and let it sit there for a long time until it gets knocked off and breaks or until spiders start weaving their webs around it. let’s see if i’d be able to keep up with this.